i’ve been spending a lot of time lately by myself. this is something that i’ve done on occasion in the past- but in short spurts, a day here or there. but the past few weeks, i’ve been quiet. i’ve allowed myself the luxury of not answering the phone, of not updating this blog, and last weekend, a break from twitter.
since getting back from chicago, i’ve fallen into a comfortable sort of silence. i haven’t felt the need to talk. i haven’t wanted to share, i haven’t wanted to put on the smile, face my to-do list, and exert the effort of engaging in social situations. i, for the first time in my life, have allowed myself to just be. i have watched tv and movies, cooked myself healthy meals, i have art journaled, i have read, i have walked. i have written pages and pages. i have committed to taking as much time as i need to grow, to heal, to learn about myself.
it’s been a powerful experience so far. i’ve become aware of how hard i’ve been on myself, and on some of the important people in my life. i’ve realized how much of myself is still wrapped up in my failed almost 7 year relationship. i have come to accept that there are lessons i need to learn from my past that i have not yet learned. i feel peaceful, and i feel ready to learn and grow. i feel free of the stress of running my business - i am now moving forward without the previous pressures that i had put on myself. i will be taking this time to focus on making art for myself. i will move forward by continuing to eat healthy, locally grown, organic food. i will walk, and one day soon, run. i will meditate, practice yoga, write, read, and laugh. i will allow myself time.
this blog will mark my journey. no promises, no commitments. it will be what it is, and i’m not going to worry about what it’s not.
i will tell you this, i have some new ideas of things i want to make for dainty*. new products, new opportunities, new energy. i am allowing for change and will practice being flexible.
soon, i have will have a brand spanking new website to share with you, and some pictures of new art & products i'm working on for dainty*. i can't wait! i am glad that i'm able to share with my readers, friends, family, etc here on this blog.
thanks for sticking around, and i'll try not to bore you.
exes & ohs,